Identity Crisis

I have hair now. But, it is uber short. I still wear my hats when I'm going to be outside to protect myself from the sun. But if I'm indoors, I'm generally hatless. So, I have been in malls or grocery stores, you know those places us humans frequent and I have caught people staring at me. I'm cool with staring. But, I can see mass confusion as they try to figure out by my appearance who I am. I look too healthy to be someone who is sick. Although I think this is their first thought but, they are unsure. I don't have the tattoos or multiple piercings and I can see they wonder if I'm gay but I'm carry a purse and not wearing a fanny pack. So the staring people are just confused. And I am amused. Amused that they are having a difficult time putting a label on who I am other than a woman with uber short salt and pepper hair.

I hope someday everyone who stares has a confused look on their face and is unable to label anyone.

Random Profile Question #5

What would you wear for camouflage if you were hiding in a gingerbread house?

Something brown. Duh.

Random Profile Question of the Day #5

I missed yesterday. We went to Dland. Was a nice day.

Here's the question:

How tall would you be if you had never cut your fingernails?

Answer:

Is that how we are suppose to measure our height? Are we to include to the tips of our finger nails to the tips of our toes? If so I'm a lot taller and therefore my BMI is already way below what Dr. Barth wants it and I can stop dieting now.

I have no idea how long my finger nails would be if I never cut them. But, this woman holds the world record and all I can think is how the hell does she wipe her ass?

Blister

I am now realizing that the blister is healed pretty good. It is scabbed over and not hurting very much. What is hurting is I'm trying to get another one. Yea I'm an over achiever. This new blister is next to the other one. It hasn't done anything yet as far as form anything that looks like a blister. The area is a little redder and it hurts. But, the area that is red is smaller than the old blister area.

I am now putting honey on that as well.

12 more to go.

Over 50 profile views

I don't even think I had anything in my profile. Then I looked and found out that I had over 50 views. That's 50 views of nothingness. So that is what prompted the rambling profile.

Looking at the Map

So where am I? I have 5 rads to the entire breast left and then 8 boosters to the tumor area that will involve about 1/3 of the breast instead of the whole thing. So 5 plus 8 makes 13. After tomorrow done to 12. Getting there.

Tuesday I go for my next herceptin. So what have I learned? Benadryl no dye I tolerate and keeps the hay fever symptoms at bay so I can function. Also they last a few days and then I'm fine.

Energy is low on some days but, I'm contributing that to radiation more than the herceptin.

Time will tell for sure about that.

Sticking to the diet. Crazy sugar cravings have diminished. And my pants are loser so I know I have dropped a little weight. Hopefully just enough to make Dr. Barth happy but truth is I'm afraid to seriously drop weight right now because of the radiation. They have me precisely measured up. I'm talking millimeters here. I don't want to mess that up. So, I have dropped a bit but, I holding off on getting to serious about it until after the 26th. Plus my body is healing right now and I don't want to be starving it. Which lets face it is what happens when you are dieting. He didn't want me losing more than 2 pounds a month anyway. He said more than that would scare him. I'm down two right now so I'm holding that until after the 26th before I start to lose more.

Blister. Blister is holding its own. Hurts. Mother hurts but it has formed a scab and is flat. I think it hurts because it would be like having a burn on your finger that keeps trying to heal but everyday you keep burning it again. Yes I would say that pretty much sums it up. At least it is not worse!

Look on the bright side of life!

Random Profile Question of the Day #4

Question:

Well, maybe they don't need them, but don't you think that some fish might like a bicycle?

Answer:

OK this is what I think. Or more accurately when I read this randomly selected question, what I immediately envisioned. A room. A room with a few employees of Blogger who have been assigned to come up with random profile questions. And they get bored. One leaves the room and goes out to their car. They return with a bong and big bag of pot. They get stoned and come up with "I got it, I got it" "you caught it? caught what?" "a fish, a fish I caught a fish." "what kind of fish?" "you know one of those bike riding fishes" "oh totally narly dude"

Yea those fish I've seen at the aquarium with legs. They would definitely like a bike. Maybe Santa will bring one to them for Christmas. But, then it would rust being in the water and all.....